Part one explained how I came to seek out gay porn as a preference. Het-porn bored me with it's endless bimbos and ugly dudes; obligatory girl-on-girl action; and pervasive anal sex. If asked why they enjoy seeing two women together, most men answer "Well it's just two times what I want!" So I started applying the same logic to gay porn: all the men and absolutely NO women! And then guess what I found out? All the attractive men are hiding out at the other end of the studio lot - in the gay section. When I started thinking about it, it made sense that the men in gay porn would be hot while the men in het-porn would not. Both genres cater to men and both try to give men what they want: attractive sexual partners. In that case, logic dictates that the hot guys would do gay porn, and boy do they!
At first, I must admit, I was a little taken aback with all the man-on-man action. It's raw and visceral and nothing I was familiar with at all. It took me a while to appreciate the fantasy of a man-on-man interaction, so in the beginning, I sought out solo action, or men alone, usually masturbating. You can find plenty of masturbating women in het-porn, but no masturbating guys unless they're moments away from ejaculation. In gay porn I was drowning in pictures and video and stories about men alone, masturbating. I was in heaven.
Over the course of the next five years or so, I became increasingly acclimated to the images of men fucking men. Searching for the perfect solo shot or scene meant digging through mounds of gay porn of all kinds and the more I did it, the less scary and gross it seemed. In fact, it didn't take long for the focus of my mental fantasies to tighten around fictional taboo and clandestine hook-ups between men I knew and even some I didn't know. Regardless, it was about this time that I discovered slash fan fiction. And then my obsession became real.
(...still more to come in Part 3!)
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